Notes to a Nameless Daughter

I chose the name "Pocock" as my surname after the main character in the book "Pocock and Pitt." As my namesake, Pocock tried to make sense of the world and his place in it, he wrote introspective missives to his nameless son(a disabled grown boy who had been cared for in an institution from the time of infancy — an unactualized yet not forgotten part of himself). The letters he wrote, although to a crippled extension of himself, were written with a tone of sincerity and optimism that the words would really be of use (perhaps it was enough that he knew the words were of use for him to say, even if his son would never read or make use of them). I have no daughter, therefore, I write mine to my nameless daughter...the one who might have been, the one unactualized inside of myself (the daughter who is the mother of me), perhaps the one in all women, certainly to the ear that does not necessarily have to hear my voice to make me feel heard just the same. I chose Pearl as my first name to remind me that the "world is my oyster." I can thrive here in this life and adapt and form myself into a being of beauty, intrigue, impact and form if I choose to sustain my efforts with clarity and to trust the world to be available to me in the ways I most need to be formed. I wish to invoke the image that there is a dialog between myself and the world that helps form us both in the same way that an oyster and a pearl have an impact on each other.
I am here with a voice and a meaning and an impact. I wish to use this web medium as a context to explore my voice, meaning and personal mission in the world.